Sad feelings.

These days don't happen very often for me. Or even moods rather. I tend to think I am really an optimistic person and truly try to make things funny or positive for everyone else. But that is also one of my biggest downfalls. I tend to hide my feelings in order, not for everything to feel "okay", but just because to me there are things that can go so much worse in my life that I really shouldn't feel that sad. But it just gets to me at the most random times. Like tonight. I am alone. My friends are all with their families, my family has gone to bed and I am just sitting my the Christmas tree. I do have so much to be thankful for- parents who love me, siblings that I love, food, and a warm house. But I think sometimes when something happens in my life that I do not quite enjoy I put it in a box and seal it up. I did so with a breakup that had happened this year. They were a great person but it wasn't true to me so it ended. But in the midst of that happening, this person changed so much and I just happened to come across a photo of him when he was truly who I thought I loved and it is just a little heart breaking. I know not really anyone reads my blog but if you are reading this have you ever felt that way? So I am just a little bit sad because of that and because sometimes when you are all surrounded by happy couples (which I am glad for, go on and be a truly, lovely, happy couple!) it can be sometimes hard to shake some feelings. And also, it is so hard to be that person who is there for people and in that moment when you need to talk or just need a vent they cannot answer. I think a true friendship is a give and take. Not a take, take, take, take. Do not be selfish with friendships. Friendships are what make us, us. These are the people you choose put yourself with and make sure it is a good bunch. I have the very best friends in the world. Just some I think I care too much about which is hard to digest. weeellllll then, okay I am done with sadness. BECAUSE TOMORROW IS CHRISTMAS EVE. haha but for anyone who is reading thank you for staying this far and most importantly if you are feeling down, never hesitate to message or comment, I am always up for a listen. And most importantly, if you are feeling down, then by golly (haha), feel that way because no one can tell you how to feel. Those are your feelings and by being human you have the right to feel them. Phew, now that is done I feel loads better and I am going to drink my weight in egg nog and christmas cookies.

With love,

Ash

Sad feelings.

These days don't happen very often for me. Or even moods rather. I tend to think I am really an optimistic person and truly try to make things funny or positive for everyone else. But that is also one of my biggest downfalls. I tend to hide my feelings in order, not for everything to feel "okay", but just because to me there are things that can go so much worse in my life that I really shouldn't feel that sad. But it just gets to me at the most random times. Like tonight. I am alone. My friends are all with their families, my family has gone to bed and I am just sitting my the Christmas tree. I do have so much to be thankful for- parents who love me, siblings that I love, food, and a warm house. But I think sometimes when something happens in my life that I do not quite enjoy I put it in a box and seal it up. I did so with a breakup that had happened this year. They were a great person but it wasn't true to me so it ended. But in the midst of that happening, this person changed so much and I just happened to come across a photo of him when he was truly who I thought I loved and it is just a little heart breaking. I know not really anyone reads my blog but if you are reading this have you ever felt that way? So I am just a little bit sad because of that and because sometimes when you are all surrounded by happy couples (which I am glad for, go on and be a truly, lovely, happy couple!) it can be sometimes hard to shake some feelings. And also, it is so hard to be that person who is there for people and in that moment when you need to talk or just need a vent they cannot answer. I think a true friendship is a give and take. Not a take, take, take, take. Do not be selfish with friendships. Friendships are what make us, us. These are the people you choose put yourself with and make sure it is a good bunch. I have the very best friends in the world. Just some I think I care too much about which is hard to digest. weeellllll then, okay I am done with sadness. BECAUSE TOMORROW IS CHRISTMAS EVE. haha but for anyone who is reading thank you for staying this far and most importantly if you are feeling down, never hesitate to message or comment, I am always up for a listen. And most importantly, if you are feeling down, then by golly (haha), feel that way because no one can tell you how to feel. Those are your feelings and by being human you have the right to feel them. Phew, now that is done I feel loads better and I am going to drink my weight in egg nog and christmas cookies.

With love,

Ash